“Bind the sacrifice with cords to the horns of the altar” (Psalm 118:27). You must be willing to be placed on the altar and go through the fire; willing to experience what the altar represents-burning, purification, and separation for only one purpose-the elimination of every desire and affection not grounded in or directed toward God. But you don’t eliminate it, God does. You “bind the sacrifice . . . to the horns of the altar” and see to it that you don’t wallow in self-pity once the fire begins. After you have gone through the fire, there will be nothing that will be able to trouble or depress you. When another crisis arises, you will realize that things cannot touch you as they used to do. What fire lies ahead in your life? Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest
Today’s devotion from Oswald Chambers is about being poued out as a drink offering. I found it rather convicting. “It is an act of your will, not your emotions. Tell God you are ready to be offered as a sacrifice for Him. Then accept the consequences as they come, without any complaints, in spite of what God may send your way. ”
I don’t know what is going on in my life. I want to be poured out as a drink offering. I want to be used by God. And yet I am in this limbo, this silence. Graham Cooke calls it a time of hiddenness and says we learn so much during these times. I am willing. I am ready. But so far… just silence and confusion. He says it is important to journal during these times, and yet I find it so hard to put word down. Everything is a struggle, and words can’t reflect what I feel. They come out sounding harsh or negative.
In times like these the imprecatory Psalms are a comfort. They don’t seem to mean much when things are going well, and yet we must always remember that there is an enemy. Maybe not flesh-and-blood kings and soldiers like David faced. But real just the same.
And then more confusion sets in. Am I being attacked by the enemy or refined but the Refiner’s Fire? Or both? Am I supposed to fight for what I believe is right or accept whatever happens as from the Father’s hands? Is this a “stand still and see the salvation of the Lord” time or a “fight the good fight” time?